iconoclasm

"Not my idea of God, but God. Not my idea of H., but H. Yes, and also not my idea of my neighbour, but my neighbour.
For don't we often make this mistake as regards people who are still alive--who are with us in the same room? Talking and acting not to the man himself but to the picture--almost the precis--we've made of him in our own minds?"

-A Grief Observed
C.S. Lewis

i wonder...

i'm sitting in a coffee shop that is huge, way bigger than the other shop with the same name. it surprised me, i walked in and ordered some coffee and food, and it took me nearly a minute to decide where to sit because there were so many choices. so now i am sitting here drinking some powerful coffee waiting for my sandwich. there are nearly 15 people here, but i feel like i am completely alone, the only person i notice is the guy to my left because he keeps moving in my peripheral vision. i wonder what kind of job he has, he looks like he is working, but i can't be sure.

my sandwich came. its good. i like the barista. he seems like a cool guy, whenever i say thank you, he says "no worries". he's definitely a chill guy, but i wonder if he really doesn't worry about stuff.

outside is a car from maryland. i wonder whose car it is. i also wonder what it is doing in portland.

the car has a bumper sticker on it that ways, "IT IS NO MEASURE OF GOOD HEALTH TO BE WELL ADJUSTED TO A SICK SOCIETY". i wonder if they know. if they know how true that statement is. i wonder what they mean by a sick society. i like the quote, because it's true. but i wonder if the person who drives that car means the deep sickness of our souls. i wonder if the person who drives that car knows Jesus. i wonder if they are being healed of their sickness by the Healer. i wonder how many people in here know Him. i wonder how many people in here know they are sick, and how many think they are better, but aren't. i wonder what the writer of that bumper sticker meant by it.

still, i like it, and still, i wonder and pray...